Going "home"

I am going "home" to Nederland (or Holland, or the Netherlands) tomorrow. Ofcourse Scotland has been my home for the last 20 odd years and I truly deeply feel like I belong here. I am married to a lovely Scottish man and my children are Scottish and I love Scotland with all my heart and soul and I am very happy here.

But I was born and raised in another country and because my family still lives there, I still have strong feelings for my Nederland. In the early years I used to miss lots of things, the cycling, just being able to hop on your bike and go shopping or just going for a ride for pleasure. People cycle in Scotland too but not so much as part of daily life and to be honest, with all the hills and no cycle paths, I have never felt that safe just jumping on my bike. I also missed the food, markets full of fresh produce, cheese, and of course the flowers. Cut flowers are so expensive here and the bunches never look that full or lovely. But you get used to new things etc and if I want something my sister will just send me a lovely parcel full of goodies. I miss the feel of the country, so flat, no mountains, lovely and green, the architecture is so different, the people are so different. No orderly queue at the bus stop, it is everyone for themselves.

Anyway, I am going to visit my mum for a few days, Just me. Hubby and teenagers are staying at home. How can I have such mixed emotions? I am so delighted to spend a few days with my mum, just her and me, to shop, to eat, to chat, to make cards without having to entertain the teens. Just time for us. We will be visiting my sister and her family. It will be great. But the other side of my mother heart is anxious. Leaving my kids and husband behind? Will they be ok? I know hubby is capable of cooking etc but still? What if something happens to them or me? I am a worrier by nature, always have been. But I am not letting that worry spoil my time away. My mum is not getting any younger and I don't see her very often so this time together is precious.

I am going to enjoy myself and no doubt get my brain all in a mush because of the language switch.I will be back with lots of pictures